Jesus Take The Wheel

Here lately, I have been getting a little down on myself.  For no reason in particular other than the fact that my life is not quite where I expected it to be at 25-years-old.  Now, the Christian girl in me keeps telling myself that God has a plan for me and I firmly believe that, but on days when I notice that other people are getting what they want, I don't feel so sure.  The other day I had a total melt-down and forced my husband to take me out for retail therapy all because a girl I went to high school with graduated law school.  Do I know if that's what she expected out of her life? NO!  Do I know if she is truly happy with where her life is headed? NO!  I was being absurd.

Sometimes it is so hard to just let go and let God!  I like to think that I live by this mantra, but sometimes it is really a struggle.  In my heart, I know that God has already seen my life and had it planned out since before I was even thought of, but there are days when I wish I could just understand God's plan.  I am one of those obnoxious people that needs to know now.  I like to know how things work and why they work the way they do.  There are times I feel like I would like to see the future, but then I remind myself that power would not always be so great.

So I am writing today in an attempt to let go and let God.  I am trying to enjoy today and not wish my life away just so I can be at the place I think I want to be.  Is the grass always greener on the other side?  Or does it just look that way from over here?